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I wanted your input to see if it'd be the same as mine. It is.

He hasn't been like his usual self this whole month. I mean, he hasn't said anything's wrong or that anything's bothering him, but I know it's something. He's quiet. He doesn't talk as much. Like a lot of his energy is just... gone.

I wonder, if it's because of what happened to me. If it's my fault, then I want to help fix it, but I don't know how.

[...

Rei doesn't answer for a while. He's glad that, like Sasara, Rosho recognizes there's something wrong between them... but damn if their attentions don't go in completely wrong directions. It's kind of annoying to see Rosho picking at himself again because of Sasara's own hangups. These dumb kids... They love each other too much.

Finally:]

Maybe it's the weather.

[ ....................... ]

Are you being a smartass or are you serious? I can't tell through text.

[LMFAOOOO it's both, baybee!!!]

Just don't think Sasara's the rainy type.
Couldn't tell you why.

[well he COULD, but he won't, because everything has to be a cryptic little game of self-help with this motherfucker.]

So he hasn't said anything when you ask, has he? Team leader's pretty stingy.

I mean, based solely off of his personality, that makes sense? But he wasn't like this before.

[ Sasara's the sort of person that doesn't care about not having an umbrella around when rain happens. He doesn't avoid puddles, he steps into them. He remembers late night runs to the conbini, rain pouring steadily from the sky, and Sasara didn't care to hurry his footsteps back to Rosho's place even as Rosho pushed and shoved to get him going.

But then, that's how things used to be. In the span of time between those memories and now... what happened?

He left Osaka. How long had he been gone? What happened during that time? Was it then that this happened? Is that why he's never said anything about it?

Even if this possibly eases the blame off of Rosho's shoulders, it doesn't make him feel any better. ]

I don't get it. What am I supposed to do? Just let him be like this?

[Rei is grateful they're having this exchange over text; it means he can sigh at these boneheads without getting the shit beaten out of him for it. Seriously...]

If you're fine with the way things are, then by all means. But since you aren't, point out the discrepancy.
Just one piece of advice...

[Rosho is constantly self-reflecting, constantly challenging himself. He's always uncomfortable, out of his depth. And Rosho may think that's a flaw... but it's not. It's powerful. And Sasara's almost allergic to sitting in it himself. He can hide it well, but it's not pretty: his lack of trust means he's risk-averse.

Rosho may love him, may think the stars and moon were hung for him, but if he's going to move forward with Sasara, he needs to know.]

Sasara's not as brave as you think he is.

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